I’m due for a haircut on Saturday and have to make a decision. I’ve been thinking about growing my hair out a bit so I have more options. The chin-length bob doesn’t offer much in the way of variety.
Then I remember that I don’t usually like myself with long hair. Not the way I look–the way I behave.
Somehow, the times in my life that I’ve had long hair (past my shoulders is long for me) have all been pretty unhappy. Most of high school, my junior and senior years of college, the crumbling of my first marriage….If I check the photo albums, I had long hair during all those miserable periods. I’m trying to decide if this is just some crazy association I have, or if long hair actually changes my decision-making process/sense of self/identity.
With my hair too short, I just look androgynous and don’t feel attractive. So that’s off the list.
So now I’m torn because I want to change up my look, but I don’t want to alter my personality.
I also know myself well enough to realize that I am NEVER going to spend more than 5 minutes (probably more than 2 minutes) on my hair before I walk out the door in the morning. Also, because of the henna, adding crazy color streaks isn’t possible. Besides that, I love my hair color–that’s one thing I don’t want to change. I’ve got seriously limited options here.